This is Me

Hey there,

This is a post all about me - which I find a bit funny because really life is all about you. I am at a place in my life that I don’t really feel like anything - like it’s a bit empty but in that emptiness I feel so full. It’s a bit like I’ve been taken back to the beginning to bring to life a new version of me.

I could give you all the labels of who I am but do they really matter? Or is each label going to write stories about me in your head? Because I am of a certain age you will have certain thoughts?

I came to the work I do following a path that all I can say is that I didn’t understand but felt right. There was no logical sense to it and it went against what most people thought was sensible or right. But that’s what this is all about - coming back to you. Walking your own path because you’re the one with you, every step of the way.

Before I go any further, there is nothing special about me - this is just where I’m at. I may have just met myself on a deeper level than you have. We each harness so much power, wisdom and clarity within us.. but maybe it has been clouded over by numerous things. I haven’t come to this place because I’ve achieved XY or Z or been here, there or everywhere. It’s a place that anyone can find if you’re willing to meet yourself in every single moment.

I always wanted to fix myself. I did the yoga and the diets. I used all the money I had on counselling and coaching. I did the affirmations and the breathing techniques. I fought and I tried but something always felt like it was missing. I read every book and listened to every podcast. I was desperate for someone else to take away the pain in me.

It was missing until I came across a book called ‘The Power of Now’ by Eckhart Tolle. I have never read a book, got to the last page and then read it again straight away. I didn’teven understand half of what he was saying but I was so absorbed. Something happened to me that I cannot explain.

The quickest overview of the book is ‘Be present’. So it’s what I started to practise. Stillness. Silence. It tested every ounce of me. There’s no escape when you meet yourself in this place. Nothing to distract you and nothing you can do to hide. You begin to feel every pain that you’ve been hiding from by doing everything else. You stop blaming the external world for how you’re feeling and allow yourself to feel just as you are.

And when you do, you learn to hold yourself. You learn to be there for yourself. You learn that ultimately you are all that you need. That’s not to say it’s nice to have others around you and own nice things.. but you don’t need them. You need you - and you have you. And when you meet yourself in this place, you see every moment in a miracle. You’re grateful - just because you’re grateful. It’s not a thought but just the way you are.

So that’s me. You don’t need to know the other bits - not because I’m ashamed of them or don’t like them, but on a deep level they don’t really matter. We are more than our labels, we are more than our thoughts. And that’s magic.

Sending you all the love,

Izi xxx